Awooest Mawr @mawr@awoo.space
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- Seattle
Dragony plush thing! Friendly, non-binary, anarcho-syndicalist, ace.
Check out @mawr for my public account.
Joined May 2017
Memory/Dissociation
@starkatt I never really understood what dissociation meant until a year or so ago when I finally looked it up and realized it's a thing that happens to me more often than I'm comfortable admitting. :x
Self Doubt, Gaslighting, Memory [3/3]
@starkatt Reminding as requested-- I'd really like to hear what you have to say on this topic. ♥️
Self Doubt, Gaslighting, Memory [3/3]
@kara_dreamer@witches.town @green Yeah. This has been a huge problem for me lately.
I know my memory has been manipulated by others enough that I don't really trust it anymore, and I think that's a large part of why I'm having so much trouble with identity right now.
@green This is extremely relatable. :x
Self Doubt, Gaslighting, Memory [3/3]
@Oneironott Thank you, hon. It's at least good to know that a lot of these things aren't unique, y'know? :x
Self Doubt, Memory [2/3]
@Soreth Thank you, hon; it's good to know I'm not alone in at least some of this. >..<
@Daxarhagron I've brought it up with several, yeah. That's what resulted in the brain function test.
@vahnj D&D groups are a hell of a drug
@vahnj Oh no ;o;
Self Doubt, Gaslighting, Memory [3/3]
I've been in a handful of really emotionally abusive relationships over the course of my life, and in most of them, I've been gaslit pretty badly. I'm very susceptible to gaslighting because of my awful memory... and I have a theory that the gaslighting I've been subjected to has caused me not to trust what I _do_ remember.
I don't know what to do about this. I've been through brain function tests with no memory anomalies... could it just be psychosomatic?!
Self Doubt, Memory [2/3]
I've always had a bad memory for recalling things on my own. I forget names of people I see and talk to every day; I forget words -- and not weird words like antidisestablishmentarianism or cantankerous, but really basic words like fire or bread.
I can't remember major life events until someone can remind me of their contents; then they start coming back.
I'm so frequently embarrassed by my memory that I'll often pretend to remember things I don't. >..<
Self Doubt, Memory [1/2]
Tonight I watched an actor I adore and have seen many times before in a film I didn't expect to see him in. I remember looking at him and thinking he looked familiar... but I didn't get that it was him until the credits rolled.
...I think I might have some form of face blindness? 'cause this happens a LOT to me, even with people I know well. I always feel awful about it.
This opened me up to thinking about my memory and how terrible it is; something I think about a lot.
@vahnj Did he try the friendening before or after the fire?
The order of operations there is pretty important, in my understanding. >..>;
injury
@Ratttz It's my pleasure, hon. ♥️
And one more thing-- if you don't already have some, pick up some triple antibiotic ointment. Deep cuts get infected very, very easily, and infected cuts always scar. Layer it on thick and keep it covered until it heals over and you'll be fine. ^^
@catterfly onest one one one one one one one one one one one one one one
@starkatt Probably! I dunno. Like I said, it's not rational. ^^;
@literorrery Do what makes you happy. ♥️ I'll do my best to follow along. ^^
- Pronouns
- They/She
- Location
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Dragony plush thing! Friendly, non-binary, anarcho-syndicalist, ace.
Check out @mawr for my public account.
Joined May 2017
