Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@Xinjinmeng@mastodon.social "Well, if you wanted to make Rezeya the Devourer cry, mission accomplished!" 😾​😽​

(But they're good tears, for good advice. <3 I was a real dismissive pain in the ass to you in another incarnation, in the feverish pursuit of an experience I still can't even understand or describe, and I've spent a non-zero amount of time sweating it over the years...)

@LeDiva Damn straight! I still need to get that T-shirt made...

@JulieSqveakaroo Thank you, honey. You have been one of my perennials, can't even remember at this point how we ran into each other, and it means a lot to me. I know you have a lot of the same social anxieties I have, and the fact you're apparently not terrified of me is probably evidence I ain't THAT scary of a homicidal psycho jungle cat. n.n;

Weird new stuff, but after hours of worry, I think it's probably just the weird old stuff setting up shop a bit close to my actual lens. It just looks like a big grey piece of film now and then, which is creepy as fuck, but it behaves like a regular floater, so I think it's just really close up?

Anyhow, guess what I discovered? Eye floaters are both a really common trigger *and* (somewhat disputedly) a really common *symptom* of anxiety! Yay! Who the fuck built us!? ^_______^;

Respectively: today's mood, target mood, optimal mood

#bravestwarriors #holojohn #butterlettuce

am making homemade butter chicken curry for the first time in like ten years

this is extremely comforting

ngl doing something competently was basically something i needed very badly

@chimerror *blush* Thank you! I really try to be nice to everyone, but... tigerbrain has different ideas when it's scared sometimes. Thanks for sticking around.

@kelseyhusky "Hey, we need something that looks like a second-world industrial craphole, you have any suggestions, Mr. Severance...?" O:)

@LexYeen@snouts.online I'm so glad this seems to be becoming a meme, even gladder that we've got that rhetorical-gun-waving asshole farage shitscared and hiding from a fucking beverage

@Leucrotta ngl, i would have been pretty much unable to get thru the last few months if i had followed thru on my threat to bail on social media altogether, you all have been a fucking bulwark for me *hug*

peg asked me earlier if there's anything she can do to help me in my stressy mood

at the time i didn't have anything but... yeah, babe, get me one of these...

https://www.reddit.com/r/BetterEveryLoop/comments/brrnre/cat_dryer/

umm ask if they have them in xxxxl 🐯​

@Balina Nah, you've... your presence has definitely been noticed. And you're just fun to have around. <3

@Balina Thank you so much. *hug* You were one of the people I was SO SAD to be leaving behind when I bailed on Birdhell and I'm so glad to still have you around. <3

@Thaminga Heh. Some part of me just wants to argue you down. *weak smile* But thank you. I like you too and your existence feels like a continued and welcome affront to the mundane world. :) <3

i could really use someone to tell me i'm okay right now

i'm fine, peg and i are basically fine, it's just been a bit of a stressful day (due to ongoing retinal worries and bureaucratic stress from insurance switch)

and i've put peg through a lot of my fretful panicky side and some seattle-Thing-related stuff has spilled out of the brainvault

just some crushing old regrets and guilt that can never be resolved, because i'm in a horrible double-bind that prevents me from ever being able to make amends without starting a whole new round of fighting and misery for everybody -- ntm the fact that there are a lot of things i still feel i'm legitimately pissed off about, would love to resolve, but have no remaining hope it ever could be

so if your world sucks any less cause of me or you ever caught me not being a useless neurotic prick this would be a good time to remind me

k thx luv u 😿​

This animated GIF may or may not remind me just a little bit of an ex-housemate of mine...

https://derpibooru.org/1441163?q=starlight+is+not+amused&sd=desc&sf=score

I don't know if a word of this story is true, but I'll bet AMC could get at least two seasons out of it...

https://threadreaderapp.com/thread/1130704462950076416.html

(cw: drugs, crime, threats of violence, incidental mention of sexual assault)

Also note that one of the major causes of Wilson's behavior was the SAME FUCKING BULLSHIT AS TODAY, the fact he didn't want to piss off racist Southern Democrats (who were basically modern Republicans for all intents and purposes)...

This is your daily reminder that America has always pretty much been shit-- or at least, has always had one river of gold and one river of shit running through it...

That's also a real interesting thesis there, that this was indirectly what pushed Japan into imperialism. Especially in light of the recent saber-rattling against Iran, I wonder how much of the other shit we're in today could have been avoided if we'd just showing some fucking moral backbone. (*cough*mohammedrezashah*cough*)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Racial_Equality_Proposal

so i spent the day procrastinating then trying to fix a payroll error with my hours then i hunted for state healthcare and got halfway through my application then got pizza with peggy and oh yeah watched dumbfounded as she quite possibly saved someone's life o_O

spotted a guy sprawled out on the ground and groggy on top of a broken bike, he didn't even call out for help or anything, and peg had her phone out and was calling 911 before i could even start processing it

sounds like the guy had a bit of a concussion but was conscious, so we kept him talking and waited til the EMS folks got there and left him in what seemed to be good hands

i am just in awe of peg right now, and i feel like this is a gratifying vindication of everything wonderful i've ever seen in her, so in love with this crazy lizard <3 <3 <3