Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

am making homemade butter chicken curry for the first time in like ten years

this is extremely comforting

ngl doing something competently was basically something i needed very badly

@chimerror *blush* Thank you! I really try to be nice to everyone, but... tigerbrain has different ideas when it's scared sometimes. Thanks for sticking around.

@kelseyhusky "Hey, we need something that looks like a second-world industrial craphole, you have any suggestions, Mr. Severance...?" O:)

@LexYeen@snouts.online I'm so glad this seems to be becoming a meme, even gladder that we've got that rhetorical-gun-waving asshole farage shitscared and hiding from a fucking beverage

@Leucrotta ngl, i would have been pretty much unable to get thru the last few months if i had followed thru on my threat to bail on social media altogether, you all have been a fucking bulwark for me *hug*

peg asked me earlier if there's anything she can do to help me in my stressy mood

at the time i didn't have anything but... yeah, babe, get me one of these...

https://www.reddit.com/r/BetterEveryLoop/comments/brrnre/cat_dryer/

umm ask if they have them in xxxxl 🐯​

@Balina Nah, you've... your presence has definitely been noticed. And you're just fun to have around. <3

@Balina Thank you so much. *hug* You were one of the people I was SO SAD to be leaving behind when I bailed on Birdhell and I'm so glad to still have you around. <3

@Thaminga Heh. Some part of me just wants to argue you down. *weak smile* But thank you. I like you too and your existence feels like a continued and welcome affront to the mundane world. :) <3

i could really use someone to tell me i'm okay right now

i'm fine, peg and i are basically fine, it's just been a bit of a stressful day (due to ongoing retinal worries and bureaucratic stress from insurance switch)

and i've put peg through a lot of my fretful panicky side and some seattle-Thing-related stuff has spilled out of the brainvault

just some crushing old regrets and guilt that can never be resolved, because i'm in a horrible double-bind that prevents me from ever being able to make amends without starting a whole new round of fighting and misery for everybody -- ntm the fact that there are a lot of things i still feel i'm legitimately pissed off about, would love to resolve, but have no remaining hope it ever could be

so if your world sucks any less cause of me or you ever caught me not being a useless neurotic prick this would be a good time to remind me

k thx luv u 😿​

This animated GIF may or may not remind me just a little bit of an ex-housemate of mine...

https://derpibooru.org/1441163?q=starlight+is+not+amused&sd=desc&sf=score

I don't know if a word of this story is true, but I'll bet AMC could get at least two seasons out of it...

https://threadreaderapp.com/thread/1130704462950076416.html

(cw: drugs, crime, threats of violence, incidental mention of sexual assault)

Also note that one of the major causes of Wilson's behavior was the SAME FUCKING BULLSHIT AS TODAY, the fact he didn't want to piss off racist Southern Democrats (who were basically modern Republicans for all intents and purposes)...

This is your daily reminder that America has always pretty much been shit-- or at least, has always had one river of gold and one river of shit running through it...

That's also a real interesting thesis there, that this was indirectly what pushed Japan into imperialism. Especially in light of the recent saber-rattling against Iran, I wonder how much of the other shit we're in today could have been avoided if we'd just showing some fucking moral backbone. (*cough*mohammedrezashah*cough*)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Racial_Equality_Proposal

so i spent the day procrastinating then trying to fix a payroll error with my hours then i hunted for state healthcare and got halfway through my application then got pizza with peggy and oh yeah watched dumbfounded as she quite possibly saved someone's life o_O

spotted a guy sprawled out on the ground and groggy on top of a broken bike, he didn't even call out for help or anything, and peg had her phone out and was calling 911 before i could even start processing it

sounds like the guy had a bit of a concussion but was conscious, so we kept him talking and waited til the EMS folks got there and left him in what seemed to be good hands

i am just in awe of peg right now, and i feel like this is a gratifying vindication of everything wonderful i've ever seen in her, so in love with this crazy lizard <3 <3 <3

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Meh, the floaters are still there. Can't tell if it's a few small ones or one huge one, but I'm seeing a ring shape that's supposed to be a bit concerning. (It's called a Weiss Ring apparently. It's never a good sign when doctors have ascribed a person's name to a symptom you've got.)

It's one of those especially frustrating situations where every damn website assumes the reader has infinite cash, insurance quality, and resources and it's really no problem to "get it checked out just in case."

There's only, like, a <15% chance of this sort of thing getting complications, but when they do, it's fairly urgent stuff like retinal tears. Fortunately, when those actually start happening, they're also heralded by some pretty obvious symptoms like bright flashes and showers of little dots. None of that's happening at all.

I really can not take on the stress of a medical adventure right now, so I'm gonna be dumb and chance it for the time being. Basically, if I don't roll a 1 on a d8, I'm fine. As long as the retina doesn't peel off in the process*, the floaters themselves are apparently quite harmless.

It's been a week, and apparently the risk drops off over time and most really bad cases are in the first 5-7 days, so... Oh, and I should also reiterate that this is all happening in my eye that already had a retina warp, so... On one hand, might be at higher risk. On the other, I've already come to kinda consider that eye a bit of a write-off. So whereas this would be FUCKING MY SHIT UP if it were happening in the other eye, I can watch all this with a sort of amused hateful detachment**. :)

Anyhow, I am starting to get in gear to hunt down the ACA application for Louisiana, so with any luck I'll have local insurance by June or July. In the meantime, I'm JUST worried enough that... talking about it here makes me a feel a lot better, so if you read thru all that Eye Ick for me, thank you. <3

*That was the "yikes" part. Sorry for that explicit imagery!
**Um, no pun intended. I should not have said detachment. >_>;

@lugh Oh man, you have no idea -- I found a copy of an old Italian giallo horror that I'd been looking for for *years*...

(figure A:)

i wonder how i'd look if i started dressing like dapper dog from tuca and bertie

i'm honestly not sure how much i'm kidding here, i'm 44 for fuck's sake and should have at least *one* style before i die